Defining myself by what I do

Its a struggle for me in a world that is overwhelming in its offerings. When I was alone, work was clearly a way to define myself. There was little to challenge me, so I challenged myself and that was enuf. Here, what I did before has no currency, therefor I don’t exist. That’s the crisis,…

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04-28-08

core / life master / 2008 / april / 4/28/08 (4/28/08) plan, progress, AE, camera technique what do i want to experience today? ae knowledge plan for film revised check to jonathan $500 police report just noticed it missing about a week ago get inventory from BH new hard drive try again – this is…

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04-27-08

core / life master / 2008 / april / 04/27/08 good morning (04/27/08) plan, motivation, strategy [snip] what do i want to experience today? peace, insight, achievement, competance, discipline, progress, intelligence, creative agility. i am looking forward to my time with AE, [snip] [snip] what do i want to experience? i want to make it…

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04-26-08

core / life master / 2008 / april / 04/26/08 (04/26/08) plan, story theory today is another day, and whatever else happens, i propose to – practice with camera, it’s kinesthetic confidence and preparedness until 4:00 – sound for DOG i am electricity. i am iron. i am all these energies and substances. they must…

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04-24-08

core / life master / 2008 / april / 4/24/08 (04/24/08) burning out, motivation here are some notes from the past few days. – so i can’t pretend anymore, i’ve got a motivation focus problem. I can’t seem to bring the movie on to the front burner, make it the number one priority. i just…

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04-13-08

core / life master / 2008 / april / 4/13 (4/13/08) progress, foley perfect day – bed by 10p and up at 4:00a – 6 hours of sleep! 4-6 MAKE audio foley 9-12 MAKE apply foley, lessons 1-4 MAKE after effects 4-5 MAKE planning , logistics, communication 6-9 MAKE edit 2+3+3+1+3 = 12 hours MAKE

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04-06-08

core / life master / 2008 / april / 4/6 (04-06-08) distractions though we are having a heck of good time on nerve, what with women sending us naked pictures and all (and what guy doesn’t like that?) I am way behind on finishing dog in the real world. it is 4/6 by god and…

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04-01-08

core / life master / 2008 / april / 4/1/08 (04/01/08) on training fighting alone There are some things i am hearing that don’t make sense, meaning that why am i the only person who gets it? they have attacked me clearly and upon my response the future of earth depends. if i only cower…

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04-00-08

core / life master / 2008 / april / laura’s smart dust (04-00-08) discarded smart dust that never dies think of the garbage that floats around on the sidewalk today, the job that it was originally intended to do, then imagine smart dust taking over those jobs and eventually becoming discarded smart dust that never…

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03-26-08 moving pictures collective

core / life master / 2008 / march / 03/26/08 moving pictures collective (03/26/08) notes, moving picture collective meeting bluray license $4500 anton bauer has the skinny on batteries on airplanes 2×160, small enough as many as you want. planning with the sound guys, what’s the strategy handles on either side, audio embedded. telecine digibeta…

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