Process Log 07-09-15

(snip) I found a gallon of hardnose in Ohio and ordered same, if I really smile and laugh today, it could arrive tomorrow. Having found a gallon tho, that’s pretty sweet as sold out all over the country. YAY! Alex made the plate, and tho it’s not quite right, at least were moving forward and…

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Process log 07-04-15

July 4, 2015 The deep archives The practices, my practices are about going deeper, experiencing more and more the amazing deliciousness of being a human, specifically playing the Dan Kelly game adroitly, virtuousically, audaciously, with joy and gratitude. What fun it could be to be me, if only I decided to play, remembered to play,…

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Process Log 07-04-15

The practices, my practices are about going deeper, experiencing more and more the amazing deliciousness of being a human, specifically playing the Dan Kelly game adroitly, virtuousically, audaciously, with joy and gratitude. What fun it could be to be me, if only I decided to play, remembered to play, revelled in the chance to play.…

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Process Log 07-23-15

  July 23 later struggle does not build character hatred is neither epic nor energizing defeat is not dramatic suffering isn’t romantic pining denies desire I ran 18 today and am def experiencing some intensity, but doing my best to just be divine about it all. My toe was acting up last night and today…

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Process Log 05-30-15

I’ve been in chronic pain, not starting in my back, hell no. I’ve been in chronic pain since I was a lad, asking girls to be mean to me, triggering their insecurities so they could act in ways that didn’t serve them – just so I could feel angry. My chronic pain is my anger,…

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Process Log 06-17-15

Now there is so much I don’t understand about her because I have these preconceptions about what she should and shouldn’t do, I am also way to dependent on her opinion of me. What Abraham is advising is to not assign the responsibility for my happiness to anyone else, never ever. That my happiness is…

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Process Log 05-17-15

(snip) This exercise helped me to remember that experience is doable and that categories are not. Categories are an abstraction and hard to define at that. Experience is presence and connection. The moment. People. If I want Louise in my life then I don’t need to define what she is to me, just enjoy her,…

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Process Log 05-08-15

It’s a lot of work to keep up all the projects I’ve got going, therefor I ask (pay) someone else(s) to keep up my fundamentally unsustainable infrastructure. Yikes! Wouldn’t it be better to kill some of our infrastructure until we can learn how to do it more efficiently? What really matters to us? Can we…

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Process Log 05-07-15

I have now a motorcycle. For this I am happy. Happy Birthday to me! Why a motorcycle? If I am not riding a bicycle, it makes the effort of driving more physical. Everything in my life needs to become more physical, more physically engaged. Also it’s just dang fun. And to survive on a motorcycle,…

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Process Log 05-03-15

Ok, now that I’ve had a taste of that life, I’d like more. I’d like to not just array myself with the trappings of competency, I want to experience radically higher achievements of love, art, effectiveness, wealth, pleasure, direction. The first thing is to thank the universe for the time I had with Louise. To…

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