Thinking of the Alexander analogy, when is an army big enough? When it’s big enough to win. I don’t need an ever expanding budget, just enough to make the movies I want to make. To accomplish the projects that seem worthy to me. The Mycenaens trekked 20k miles conquering the whole way. A crazy assed…

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Visualization is not about the future, it’s about having our life in the now, becoming adept at being open and feeling love and adventure in the moment. Not projecting some about to be, but knowing and feeling what we truly are (want) in the present. Visualizing is experiencing, not simulating or even practice or rehearsal,…

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• The universe is energy Thought is an energy template (mold). It’s a pattern. • Energy flows into – is attracted to – patterns. • raw energy – chi, prana, shakti, emptiness, zero point, quanta – flowing into a pattern yields manifestations – matter and experience, situations, events, even poeple. Reality is all potential. Form…

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recently off my radar… Lauren Di Scipio Yvonne Ridgewell Steve Kelly Jomathan Kelly Julie Allegro Constantin Gretchen Eichberger Formerly categorized as allies that can no longer sustain an equitable exchange of value OR I only imagined they did, hoped they would eventually.

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We’ve got a socisl life, and to invite Lauren back in while i have such a huge unresolved project outstanding feels dangerous. It’s as if now that i potentially have momentum i am suddenly looking for ways to swerve and roll the vehicle. I don’t believe that i created the Luke episode as a form…

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I’m assembling the rough cut with placeholders as planned to test the whole. Actually a series of tests, each demonstrating some concept or approach. The near term objective is to show the test to Yvonne, as an arbitrary milestone. Mostly it’s about whether I think it’s working, and if so to set forth a refinement…

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The reason she broke up with me, why Faisal was acting like a dick, why my friendship with Laura and Philippa ended, why women act like goddamn electric fences around me, why my prostate flared up, why I keep getting sucked into distracting situations… It’s because I’m finishing DOG. I’ll likely loose a lot more…

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15 days Getting close now. Order of operations seems to be holding together, it’s spooky that I’m mostly on schedule. Everything can go right between now and launch… it’s possible. I am noticing more, recognizing the unfolding of a larger story. A lot of ideas to fit into a coherent movie… I guess I started…

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core / life master / 2009 / APRIL / 4/25/09 (4/25/09) almonds, visualization It’s april 25 about to be 26. 4 more days until 100k, amazing lover / girlfriend and the wrap of almonds. [snip] when i achieve these goals, I’ll take some time off to ponder. maybe 10 minutes. i mean a week or…

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core / life master / 2008 / december / December 12 collaboration failure, book of DOG, gear, motivation I’ve released the collaborators and closed down the book of DOG. It just didn’t have the robust response I was counting on, a lackluster response could potentially threaten my own motivation and dedication which is paramount. i…

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